I lost a girl whom I love

Why do I feel so sad anymore, like I'm being hurt from the inside I thought I found the one to be with me but I was so dead wrong She doesn't care about me and I did everything for her and all I got was that shes drifting away from me I get sick of how I have to do regretful things just to get someone that love me and when I find someone I can be myself I lose her in a heartbeat How could I bee so foolish, to love somebody that could never love me It's like I'm being treated worse then a pervert, a jerk, a predator How come I get treated like dirt so much and I NEVER DID ANYTHING I feel like I want to disappear into the abyss and never be seen again People like Rachael, people like Alyssa will all hate me or get with someone but me I always fall for really good female friends because I feel like I can connect well to them BUT NO, I have to go out with all these different people and pay for their meals just for a chance to be with anyone who will probably never love me. Why risk money on people that don't love me Why risk being hurt and people are so cold I HATE THIS PLANET AND I HATE BEING HUMAN People act like you have to be at risk, you have to be hurt, I'm sick of the logic of this world. I'm sick of everything about humans, they don't love they just fuck and that's it. I watch so much amine and like how is about a bond and staying together no matter what The logic of humans is only divorce, material possessions, and lust, and sex. I am so foolish to be here and feel like I have no place here for my expertise I am just a nobody whom nobody loves except for a few of my family. I'm not sure I even wanna go dating anymore because it's a joke and a fraud. Maybe I should move to another place but there is no hope anymore. Humans are going to die because of their ignorance and being a bunch of lies I'm SICK OF IT, I'm sick of humans anymore, humans use to mean something during the revolutionary war and now people don't care about anything anymore BUT THEMSELVES Love is a mistake, Love is a lie anymore I feel like I'm nothing and have no purpose but to just sit here and watch everything while my heart bleeds I was a fool to ever be a nice guy cause the logic of humans love is be a mean guy who can make a girl mad I don't know why I am here, I have no purpose, I HAVE NO PURPOSE, but just to suffer. I want a purpose but the problem is I know too much of the truth to go back to regular reality I know too much of the truth so I'm stuck with no purpose because people have no balls People are so cold anymore why can't I just disappear, cause people wouldn't care as I fade away.